I wonder why we are so afraid of each other…Hmmmm, perhaps it’s the innate fear of rejection that we all have in one way or another, but in reality the other person may just be as fearful as you. I’ve never really been afraid to talk to people I don’t know if I found them appealing enough and it led me to meet one bestie in the most unlikely places. In my country we have a really bad public transportation system that is basically second-hand Japanese omnibuses in need of repair badly. I try to avoid them as much as possible but where I live that basically means staying at home almost 365days a year. So one day I had to take one and sat in my usual style; with a book by the window wearing my neutral expression (people say I have resting bitch-face). In other words I was basically telling people “Don’t effing talk to me…” Another person boarded the bus and instantly I was drawn to him by the way he walked and dressed, rather flamboyantly for my city. I wanted to talk to him and needed to find a good excuse to. Then I noticed he was reading an investing magazine so I rushed up to his seat and started to talk about finances with him because the book I was carrying was about investing. We ended up spending the entire day together and I felt comfy telling him “things” I had never told anyone before. I wonder what would have happened if I hadn’t had the guts to just talk to him…Mmmmm
I’ve ended my 1000day challenge. I can almost hear the gasps, but I realized that I wasn’t achieving much at all of all the goals and dreams I had set for myself. My brain just doesn’t function in the long-term, I’m such a last-minute person that if a time-period is beyond a day…no that’s stretching it…a few hours my brain goes into complete chill mode I’ve realized I work better with a 1000 seconds goals rather than days lol, but wait, seconds make it sound sooooo long….more like whatever….I guess the biggest point is that we never know what tomorrow will bring but today is all we have ( and we aren’t even guaranteed that we have it fully either). I guess I’ll concentrate on what I can achieve right now instead of in the future because it’s really what we do now that determines our future right?
This is one of the few years when Chanukah and Christmas coincide. That must be a good omen. To be honest I don’t even know what day I am on on the thousand day Challenge. Lost track like many things. That makes me think… How often do we get so caught up that we lose track of what is really important. I know it sounds so cliche but it’s a truth too true to ignore as I’m sitting here wondering what to do next….
I don’t know why I wanted to post a pic of me looking bored but oh well. If you follow me on twitter or maybe chat with me on Whatsapp then you’ve probably noticed that my status is always saying Day something of 1000 Day Challenge (I’m on Day 61 at the writing of this post). We all go through life unconsciously I believe. Living from day to day. And older we get the less aware of time we get. Remember when we were young and time seemed to move so slow? A year was definitely a year and by the end of it you could see the progress. You would have grown taller, started having boobs, started your period etc…You could definitely say you had learned some new things. It looks like after high school time slows down. You lose track of time; then lo and behold…you have become one of those adults you used to make fun of who still talk about the early twentieth century like it was yesterday and the whippersnappers born in 2030 are making fun of you. One of my aims in the 1000 Day Challenge is to envision myself as a baby. Change in a baby is so constant and so apparent you cannot miss it. At one week it’s visibly different to one day. That’s what I’m aiming for, That at the end of each week this beautiful baby will be showing positive change. I’m a young adult now and whatever choices I make at this point in my life could affect the rest of my life so I need to consciously improve my financial, physical, spiritual life etc right now. Start today, don’t delay!
The main goal of my challenge though is to stop being the person I imagine myself to be and become it. We all have romanticized dreams about the person we could be and what we could be achieving. We all wish that we had the Mida’s touch in everything that we do and that everything we endeavored to do turned to gold. Unfortunately that is not the case. We usually suck when we start doing something. Then after a few years we become good at it. 1000 Days isn’t much and I’m still young. I can do it. Society makes us think that if we didn’t start doing something at conception then you’re just too old. I mean look at Maddie Zieglar freaking dancing like she’s got no bones at 12 and you can barely move your hips at 30. It can be demotivating. But everyone has their own path and it’s never too late to start. This is how I choose to walk my path.
Right now I’ve made progress. I’ve been praying more and working more. And taking leaps in things I was afraid to do before. I feel like I am re-starting my life. I’m also hanging around toxic people a lot less so I feel happier. I’m trying to always be postive. Lol, my blood type is A+…..so I’ll try to be a positive person lol.
That’s it for now. I’ll post more today if I feel like it. KISHU :3
Hey Hey! My name’s Aaliyah Tanatswa Zadok. I’m a 20 years young and when I want to sound younger I say that I’m sweet sixteen with four years experience. I’m from Zimbabwe and no I’m not living in abject poverty and starving. I have a relatively good life. Not rich but I have meals everyday and can afford junkfood. I’m at the point when I’m starting my own life now. Considering I’m from a country that has girls living with their parents until their married that’s something. I even have a thousand day challenge going on right now. It’s basically me trying to transform myself into what I have always wanted to be. If you’re interested about my progress and crazy life and thoughts. Just follow this silly blog and let’s be friends :3