I wonder why we are so afraid of each other…Hmmmm, perhaps it’s the innate fear of rejection that we all have in one way or another, but in reality the other person may just be as fearful as you. I’ve never really been afraid to talk to people I don’t know if I found them appealing enough and it led me to meet one bestie in the most unlikely places. In my country we have a really bad public transportation system that is basically second-hand Japanese omnibuses in need of repair badly. I try to avoid them as much as possible but where I live that basically means staying at home almost 365days a year. So one day I had to take one and sat in my usual style; with a book by the window wearing my neutral expression (people say I have resting bitch-face). In other words I was basically telling people “Don’t effing talk to me…” Another person boarded the bus and instantly I was drawn to him by the way he walked and dressed, rather flamboyantly for my city. I wanted to talk to him and needed to find a good excuse to. Then I noticed he was reading an investing magazine so I rushed up to his seat and started to talk about finances with him because the book I was carrying was about investing. We ended up spending the entire day together and I felt comfy telling him “things” I had never told anyone before. I wonder what would have happened if I hadn’t had the guts to just talk to him…Mmmmm
I’ve ended my 1000day challenge. I can almost hear the gasps, but I realized that I wasn’t achieving much at all of all the goals and dreams I had set for myself. My brain just doesn’t function in the long-term, I’m such a last-minute person that if a time-period is beyond a day…no that’s stretching it…a few hours my brain goes into complete chill mode I’ve realized I work better with a 1000 seconds goals rather than days lol, but wait, seconds make it sound sooooo long….more like whatever….I guess the biggest point is that we never know what tomorrow will bring but today is all we have ( and we aren’t even guaranteed that we have it fully either). I guess I’ll concentrate on what I can achieve right now instead of in the future because it’s really what we do now that determines our future right?